Toat\u0103 lumea care poveste\u015fte despre statutul meu de singuratic\u0103 are o tent\u0103 fie de comp\u0103timire, de parc\u0103 singur\u0103tatea ar fi vreo boal\u0103 cu bube, vreun flagel, vreun handicap, fie cu acuz\u0103, de parc\u0103 singur\u0103tatea ar fi un statut p\u0103c\u0103tos, ca acela de curva satului sau dil\u0103rul cartierului. \u015ei \u00eencearc\u0103 s\u0103 m\u0103 combine cu diver\u015fi, sau s\u0103-mi recomande solu\u0163ii de reintegrare \u00een societate. <\/p>\n
Iar eu caut cuvinte s\u0103 explic c\u0103 nu, singur\u0103tatea nu e un lucru r\u0103u, nu e un blestem \u015fi nu e un handicap, singur\u0103tatea e felul meu natural de a fi. \u00cemi place propria mea companie. \u00cemi plac lini\u015ftea \u015fi muzica mea, \u00een plac chilo\u0163ii mei, \u00een care pot sta f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 m\u0103 formalizez, \u015fi \u00eemi place s\u0103 nu trebuiasc\u0103 s\u0103-mi justific op\u0163iunile \u00een fa\u0163a nim\u0103nui.
\n\u00cemi place s\u0103 m\u0103n\u00e2nc noaptea la trei \u015fi s\u0103 dorm dup\u0103-amiaza la \u015fase. <\/p>\n
\u015ei pot oric\u00e2nd s\u0103 ies cu oameni \u00een ora\u015f, s\u0103 m\u0103 bucur real de prezen\u0163a, inteligen\u0163a, umanitatea lor, iar dup\u0103 ce termin treaba cu ei, t\u00e2njesc la singur\u0103tate ca la o mare dragoste. <\/p>\n
Apoi, se \u00eent\u00e2mpl\u0103 s\u0103 m\u0103 conving\u0103 cineva pe moment. “B\u0103i, OK. Poate c\u0103 e ceva \u00een neregul\u0103 cu mine. Poate nu e frumos s\u0103 \u00ee\u0163i petreci toat\u0103 via\u0163a singur. Poate c\u0103 e util \u00een via\u0163\u0103 s\u0103 ai un suflet pereche, cu care s\u0103 \u00eempar\u0163i binele \u015fi r\u0103ul.”
\n\u015ei, cu acest tren de g\u00e2nduri, s\u0103 urc \u00een metrou.
\nIar \u00een fa\u0163a mea s\u0103 se afle o doamn\u0103.
\nLa telefon:
\n-\u015ei cum a fost la istorie? A\u0163i dat lucrare? Da? Din ce? Aha, \u0163i-am zis eu s\u0103 cite\u015fti \u015fi aia. Da.
\nAscult\u0103 justificarea:
\n-\u00cen rest, ai \u015ftiut? Da, vedem. \u015ei dup\u0103 istorie ce-ai avut. Matematic\u0103. Hai, c\u0103 la matematic\u0103 ai \u00eenv\u0103\u0163at ieri toat\u0103 ziua. V-a ascultat? Ei, nu conteaz\u0103, tu nu \u00eenve\u0163i s\u0103 te asculte, tu \u00eenve\u0163i s\u0103 \u015ftii. \u015ei dup\u0103 aia ce-ai avut?
\n\u015ei dup\u0103 vreo cinci minute de interogatoriu aprofundat legat de \u015fcoal\u0103, numai modelul h\u00e2rtiei de la bud\u0103 nu l-a \u00eentrebat, trece la subiecte mai vesele.
\n-Ai m\u00e2ncat? Ce? P\u0103i n-am vorbit noi c\u0103 m\u0103n\u00e2nci \u015fi legume? Aha. Da, bine. \u015ei ce faci acum? Cum adic\u0103 stai? M\u00e2ine ai preg\u0103tire la francez\u0103, lucreaz\u0103. Da, nu po\u0163i sta a\u015fa, c\u0103 se adun\u0103 toate mai \u00eencolo. \u015ei o limb\u0103 str\u0103in\u0103 o \u00eenve\u0163i dac\u0103 o exersezi. Dac\u0103 n-ai teme pe m\u00e2ine, e bine s\u0103 le faci pe alea pentru poim\u00e2ine, c\u0103 se mai echilibreaz\u0103. Dada. S\u0103 fie f\u0103cute, s\u0103 te \u015ftii cu caii-n c\u0103ru\u0163\u0103. Hai, acum, c\u0103 e soare \u015fi bine. Mintea e mai receptiv\u0103.
\n\u015ei subit, \u00eemi amintesc toate motivele pentru care iubesc singur\u0103tatea. <\/p>\n
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