Eram ieri la un fast food \u015fi m\u00e2ncam o sup\u0103, c\u00e2nd, deodat\u0103, ai intrat tu, \u00eenso\u0163it de copilul t\u0103u. M-am prins pe loc c\u0103 sunte\u0163i divor\u0163a\u0163i.
\n“Nu, Lorena”, o s\u0103 m\u0103 corecteze aici un b\u0103g\u0103tor de seam\u0103 dornic s\u0103 se afirme. “Era divor\u0163at de maic\u0103-sa.”
\nNu, b\u0103g\u0103tor de seam\u0103, o s\u0103-l corectez eu. Exist\u0103 t\u0103tici divor\u0163a\u0163i doar de mame, dar care continu\u0103 s\u0103 se preocupe activ de soarta copiilor lor, s\u0103 le sus\u0163in\u0103 financiar traiul \u015fi educa\u0163ia, s\u0103 vorbeasc\u0103 zi de zi cu ei, s\u0103-i duc\u0103 pe la cursuri, ca ni\u015fte ta\u0163i, \u015fi exist\u0103 t\u0103tici divor\u0163a\u0163i de mame \u015fi de copii. \u0102ia care nu con\u015ftientizeaz\u0103 c\u0103 un simplu act de divor\u0163 nu le anuleaz\u0103 paternitatea \u015fi responsabilitatea. \u0102ia care zic: “OK, sunt din nou burlac, iar pe \u0103\u015ftia s\u0103-i creasc\u0103 \u015fi s\u0103-i educe vaca aia handicapat\u0103, c\u0103 oricum, alt\u0103 treab\u0103 n-are.”
\n\u015etiu exact fa\u0163a de t\u0103tic divor\u0163at, pentru c\u0103 \u015fi eu am avut parte de asta. Lipsa absolut\u0103 a interesului fa\u0163\u0103 de fiin\u0163a mic\u0103 pe care o aduci de m\u00e2n\u0103, o r\u0103ceal\u0103 ca de ghea\u0163\u0103 pe care o emani, g\u00e2ndurile vizibil \u00een alt\u0103 parte, eventual num\u0103r\u0103toarea de oi: “Peste 4000 de oi, se termin\u0103 aceast\u0103 interac\u0163iune nepl\u0103cut\u0103 \u015fi pot s\u0103 m\u0103 car la ga\u015fc\u0103 \/ amant\u0103 \/ clubul de lab\u0103-n cerc \/ jocuri \/ orice altceva mai important dec\u00e2t copilul meu.”
\nV-a\u0163i a\u015fezat la dou\u0103 mese de mine. Mi-ai sim\u0163it privirea. Ai crezut c\u0103 se datoreaz\u0103 masculinit\u0103\u0163ii tale cov\u00e2r\u015fitoare \u015fi mi-ai aruncat o ochead\u0103 care-mi povestea ce mare o ai \u015fi ce glorios func\u0163ioneaz\u0103. Am sim\u0163it cum mi se \u00eentoarce supa, \u015fi era p\u0103cat. Drept care, am luat mobilul \u015fi am pretins c\u0103 se \u00eent\u00e2mpla ceva foarte hot pe ecran.
\n\u0102la mic, \u00eentre timp, \u00eencercase s\u0103-\u0163i povesteasc\u0103 ceva de la gr\u0103dini\u0163\u0103, dar v\u0103z\u00e2nd c\u0103 nu e ascultat, s-a \u00eentrerupt la jum\u0103tatea pove\u015ftii.
\nN-ai remarcat.
\nAsta \u00eei va transmite informa\u0163ia c\u0103 e o persoan\u0103 de m\u00e2na a treia, care nu intereseaz\u0103 pe nimeni. \u015ei va accepta abuz pe viitor de la diver\u015fi ipochimeni abuzivi, pentru c\u0103 tu i-ai transmis informa\u0163ia c\u0103 e normal s\u0103 fie ignorat.
\nL-ai \u00eentrebat plictisit.
\n-Ce \u00ee\u0163i iau?
\n\u0162i-a r\u0103spuns.
\nTe-ai dus aproape extatic s\u0103 comanzi ce \u00ee\u0163i ceruse. Parc\u0103 era o bucurie s\u0103 scapi de copil. De propriul t\u0103u copil. Eu paralizasem, fil\u00e2nd de dup\u0103 mobil. \u00cemi amintisem de ni\u015fte vizite la cofet\u0103rie, la fel de reci \u015fi de indiferente, o dat\u0103 pe an bisect.
\nI-ai adus pe o tav\u0103 ce-\u0163i ceruse, \u015fi i-ai \u00eempins nep\u0103s\u0103tor tava \u00een fa\u0163\u0103. Copila\u015ful a \u00eencercat s\u0103 deschid\u0103 alt subiect.
\n-M\u0103n\u00e2nc\u0103 \u015fi taci! l-ai \u00eentrerupt.
\nPe bune, drag t\u0103tic divor\u0163at, ce alt\u0103 activitate poate fi mai important\u0103 pentru tine dec\u00e2t s\u0103-\u0163i ascul\u0163i propriul copil? Mai ales c\u0103 oricum sunte\u0163i \u00een acela\u015fi spa\u0163iu, \u015fi nu e ca \u015fi cum ai avea ceva mai interesant de f\u0103cut?
\n\u00cen timp ce copilul m\u00e2nca \u015fi \u00eencerca s\u0103 te fure cu privirea, tu examinai un punct fix \u00een tavan. Emanai plictiseal\u0103 din to\u0163i porii. O plictiseal\u0103 dens\u0103, toxic\u0103, dezgust\u0103toare. At\u00e2t de familiar\u0103.
\nMi-a\u015f fi dorit s\u0103 am incon\u015ftien\u0163a s\u0103-\u0163i dau cu tava-n cap, s\u0103-\u0163i rad dou\u0103 palme \u015fi s\u0103-\u0163i atrag aten\u0163ia c\u0103, peste dou\u0103zeci de ani, tu o s\u0103 fii o biat\u0103 epav\u0103 epuizat\u0103 din toate punctele de vedere, \u015fi o s\u0103-l suni. Subit, cu o carier\u0103 \u015fi un renume, \u0163i se va p\u0103rea o persoan\u0103 interesant\u0103. Brusc, vei avea motive s\u0103-i ar\u0103\u0163i preocupare. Foarte convenabil.
\n-Alo, ce faci tat\u0103?
\n-Nimic relevant pentru tine. <\/p>\n
Dar nu \u0163i-am dat cu tava-n cap. E ok. Pedeapsa pe care \u0163i-o va da soarta va fi ceva mai grea. Soarta nu d\u0103 cu tava. <\/p>\n
***<\/p>\n
Dup\u0103 ce a terminat, dar exact \u00een secunda \u00een care a \u00eenghi\u0163it ultimul dumicat, f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103-i la\u015fi cinci secunde s\u0103-i tihneasc\u0103, te-ai ridicat.
\n-S\u0103 mergem?
\n-Dar de ceeee?
\n-Hai, c\u0103 e t\u00e2rziu.
\nEra ora 13 \u015fi 20 de minute.
\nL-ai \u00eembr\u0103cat repede \u015fi l-ai scos \u00een vitez\u0103 din fast food. I-ai uitat m\u0103nu\u015file. Mici, albastre cu alb. Probabil o s\u0103 vin\u0103 maic\u0103-sa mai \u00eencolo s\u0103 le recupereze. \u00cen fast food nu se pierde nimic.
\nDoar iubirea unui copil. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Eram ieri la un fast food \u015fi m\u00e2ncam o sup\u0103, c\u00e2nd, deodat\u0103, ai intrat tu, \u00eenso\u0163it de copilul t\u0103u. M-am prins pe loc c\u0103...<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":11590,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":true,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2},"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-12028","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-spicy"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/lorenalupu.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/11\/agresati-estetic.jpg?fit=510%2C382&ssl=1","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/lorenalupu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12028","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/lorenalupu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/lorenalupu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lorenalupu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lorenalupu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=12028"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/lorenalupu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12028\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":12037,"href":"https:\/\/lorenalupu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12028\/revisions\/12037"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lorenalupu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/11590"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/lorenalupu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=12028"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lorenalupu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=12028"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lorenalupu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=12028"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}