{"id":17127,"date":"2019-04-02T09:24:58","date_gmt":"2019-04-02T06:24:58","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/lorenalupu.com\/blog\/?p=17127"},"modified":"2019-04-02T09:24:58","modified_gmt":"2019-04-02T06:24:58","slug":"posta-redactiei-dragostea-ma-face-surda-si-oarba","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/lorenalupu.com\/blog\/posta-redactiei-dragostea-ma-face-surda-si-oarba\/","title":{"rendered":"Po\u015fta redac\u0163iei: Dragostea m\u0103 face surd\u0103 \u015fi oarb\u0103"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Intro: Periodic, oferim iubire cititorului nostru. Nu, Gicu, nu sub form\u0103 de sex, stai jos. \u00cen schimb, lu\u0103m o dram\u0103 personal\u0103 pe care mi-o trimite\u0163i pe mail, pe birou@lorenalupu.com, \u015fi g\u0103sim o solu\u0163ie, pe care oricum n-o ve\u0163i urma, dar m\u0103car ne distr\u0103m.<\/p>\n<p>\u015ei misiva de data asta:<\/p>\n<p><em><strong>Drag\u0103 Lorena,<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n<p><em><strong>\u00cen limita timpului disponibil, poate m\u0103 po\u0163i ajuta cu un sfat, te rog mult.<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n<p><em><strong>O s\u0103 \u00eencerc s\u0103 fiu c\u00e2t mai succint\u0103, chiar dac\u0103 mi-e team\u0103, totu\u015fi, c\u0103 pierd aspecte relevante: \u00een februarie 2016, am vrut s\u0103 particip la un concert de muzic\u0103 clasic\u0103. Din p\u0103cate, \u00eens\u0103, am aflat prea t\u00e2rziu \u015fi nu mai erau bilete. Am c\u0103utat pe Internet sper\u00e2nd \u00eentr-o minune \u015fi minunea s-a produs! <\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n<p><em><strong>O funda\u0163ie era organizatorul acelui concert. Am intrat pe FB, \u015fi astfel am aflat c\u0103 se caut\u0103 persoane care pot ajuta cu tot ce este nevoie, iar \u00een schimb, puteai s\u0103 audiezi concertul. M-am bucurat tare mult de aceast\u0103 \u015fans\u0103 nesperat\u0103. Cu aceast\u0103 ocazie l-am \u00eent\u00e2lnit pe pre\u015fedintele funda\u0163iei, mi-a pl\u0103cut z\u00e2mbetul cald cu care m-a \u00eent\u00e2mpinat. A fost un concert divin, \u00eenchideam ochii \u015fi mi se p\u0103rea c\u0103 este un vis.<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n<p><em><strong>Am vrut s\u0103 cunosc c\u00e2t mai multe despre activitatea funda\u0163<\/strong><\/em><em><strong>iei, despre proiectele lor, chiar m\u0103 interesa s\u0103 \u00eei ajut efectiv (salarizat sau nu). Tot citind, am vrut s\u0103 cunosc c\u00e2t mai multe \u015fi despre pre\u015fedintele funda\u0163<\/strong><\/em><em><strong>iei (cum este ca om \u2013 ex. personalitate, comportament, g\u00e2ndire), p\u0103rea altfel dec\u00e2t al\u0163ii. Am intrat \u015fi pe blogul lor, \u015fi am \u00eenceput s\u0103 corespondez cu el (sub diverse nickname-uri, \u015fi el, \u015fi eu). Se pare \u00eens\u0103 c\u0103 acest aspect l-a iritat foarte mult, deoarece, dup\u0103 ce p\u0103rea o conversa\u0163ie banal\u0103, \u00eencepea s\u0103 m\u0103 insulte (ripostam, evident) \u015fi apoi m\u0103 \u00eencuraja s\u0103 revin (p\u0103rea chiar c\u0103 \u00eei pas\u0103 de mine), pentru a o lua de la cap\u0103t. <\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n<p><em><strong>\u00cen tot acest timp, eu eram \u00eendr\u0103gostit\u0103 de el, am pierdut bani (neav\u00e2nd job, am vrut s\u0103 plec \u00een str\u0103in\u0103tate, \u00eens\u0103 am decis s\u0103 r\u0103m\u00e2n pentru el), sufeream foarte mult s\u0103 fiu tratat\u0103 a\u015fa de r\u0103u (nu s-a mai purtat nimeni niciodat\u0103 cu mine \u00een asemenea hal, de\u015fi ripostam de fiecare dat\u0103, \u015fi uneori recuno\u015ftea c\u0103 se joac\u0103 cu mintea mea, c\u0103 m\u0103 manipuleaz\u0103, \u00eens\u0103 eu eram prea oarb\u0103 \u015fi surd\u0103, iubindu-l), m-am \u00eemboln\u0103vit de ficat, am f\u0103cut psoriazis, ajunsesem la 42 kg. Am \u00eencercat s\u00ee-l \u00eent\u00e2lnesc, i-am propus s\u0103 vorbim, \u00eens\u0103 nimic. L-am mai v\u0103zut de c\u00e2teva ori, c\u00e2nd am mai fost eu la evenimentele organizate de funda\u0163ie, momente \u00een care p\u0103rea c\u0103 de-abia suport\u0103 s\u0103 m\u0103 vad\u0103 sau se juca pur \u015fi simplu. <\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n<p><em><strong>Dup\u0103 o perioad\u0103 \u00een care mi-am distrus s\u0103n\u0103tatea \u00een acest fel, mi-a spus c\u0103 mi-a instalat o camer\u0103 video \u00een cas\u0103. \u00cen acel moment, am crezut c\u0103 mor efectiv (de\u015fi aveam b\u0103nuieli \u015fi \u00eenainte, deoarece \u00eemi spunea detalii despre mine \u015fi din cas\u0103, pe care nu avea altfel cum s\u0103 le \u015ftie), chiar am \u00eencercat s\u0103 m\u0103 sinucid de 2 ori. <\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n<p><em><strong>\u00cen tot acest timp, c\u00e2t \u015fi anterior, el a v\u0103zut toate astea, a v\u0103zut toat\u0103 durerea \u015fi suferin\u0163a mea \u015fi a recidivat, nu-i p\u0103sa, m\u0103 amenin\u0163a, m\u0103 \u015fantaja \u015fi, \u00een plus, pretindea c\u0103 a f\u0103cut ceva pentru mine \u015fi la schimb vroia servicii sexuale. Am refuzat, m\u0103 sim\u0163eam din ce \u00een ce mai r\u0103u, astfel \u00eenc\u00e2t am \u00eencercat s\u0103 evit orice interac\u0163iune cu el, timp \u00een care c\u0103utam s\u0103 scap de blestemata de camer\u0103 video. Am \u00eencercat tot ce era posibil : am c\u0103utat peste tot, am chemat un electrician, am cump\u0103rat detectoare (chinez\u0103rii proaste, care detectau orice semnal \u015fi, implicit, nu puteai s\u0103 \u015ftii care din ele este semnalul de la camer\u0103, astfel \u00eenc\u00e2t nu puteai sparge tot prin cas\u0103 pt a g\u0103si unde e camera), am vrut s\u0103 m\u0103 mut cu chirie (era destul de scump, zone proaste, plus de ce s\u0103 plec eu din casa mea din cauza acestei camere?), am vrut s\u0103 cump\u0103r alt\u0103 cas\u0103 (iar destul de scump, plus c\u0103 nu am g\u0103sit ce c\u0103utam), i-am propus de multe ori s\u0103 ne vedem, s\u0103 discut\u0103m, nimic. \u00cen tot acest timp, avea \u015fi p\u0103r\u0163i bune (scria lucruri folositoare \u015fi pentru mine, p\u0103rea c\u0103 \u0163ine la mine, \u00een felul lui), c\u00e2nd intram pe diverse site-uri, uneori (sub false nickname-uri) \u00eencerca s\u0103 discute cu mine, \u00eens\u0103, de cele mai multe ori, ne certam: ori era el furios, ori eu. El \u00eesi vedea de treburile lui \u00een continuare, se \u00eent\u00e2lnea cu femei, f\u0103cea ce f\u0103cea de obicei, ca \u015fi cum eu nu existam. Anul trecut chiar \u00ee\u015fi pusese anun\u0163<\/strong><\/em><em><strong> oficial pe siteuri de specialitate, pentru a-\u015fi cump\u0103ra concubin\u0103\/so\u0163ie, \u00ee\u015fi dorea 2 copii. M-a durut \u015fi mai r\u0103u. Pur \u015fi simplu, eu,din nou, nu existam&#8230;&#8221;\u00a0<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n<p><em><strong>X.<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n<p>*<\/p>\n<p>Aici, cu scuzele de rigoare, \u00eentrerup povestea \u015fi o rezum eu: tipa se tot miloge\u015fte de el s\u0103 se vad\u0103, el nimic, se \u015fi \u00eensoar\u0103, ea sufer\u0103, el n-are nici o treab\u0103, ea sufer\u0103 \u015fi mai tare, el se mai bag\u0103 \u00een seam\u0103 cu ea online pentru r\u00e2s, ea e de-a dreptul r\u0103v\u0103\u015fit\u0103 de durere \u015fi la final, tot ea m\u0103 \u00eentreab\u0103 apoteotic c\u0103, aoleu, dac\u0103 l-a c\u0103lcat pe b\u0103t\u0103turi.<\/p>\n<p>Pe unul care ba vrea s\u0103 \u0163i-o trag\u0103, ba refuz\u0103 s\u0103 te vad\u0103 cu lunile, iar c\u00e2nd te vede, r\u00e2de de tine c\u0103 \u0163i-a montat o camer\u0103 video.<\/p>\n<p>OK, mailul \u0103sta sper din inim\u0103 s\u0103 fie trolling. Sper din inim\u0103 s\u0103 nu existe femei at\u00e2t de \u00eenfior\u0103tor de naive \u015fi prostibile p\u00e2n\u0103 la plus infinit.<\/p>\n<p>Faptul c\u0103 sunt at\u00e2\u0163ia masculi care \u00eencearc\u0103 s\u0103 te ia de proast\u0103 ar putea fi justificat de existen\u0163a acestor femei \u015fi de halul \u00een care pun ele botul la vr\u0103jeal\u0103.<\/p>\n<p>Fetelor.<\/p>\n<p>X., care ai scris scrisoarea, \u015fi restul care \u00eenghi\u021bi\u021bi c***at de la vreo tentativ\u0103 e\u0219uat\u0103 de umanoid, din &#8220;iubire&#8221; pe care \u0103la oricum nu v-o va returna niciodat\u0103:<\/p>\n<p>Un om care v\u0103 iube\u015fte VREA s\u0103 v\u0103 vad\u0103. Un om care v\u0103 iube\u015fte VREA s\u0103 fi\u0163i fericite. Un om care v\u0103 iube\u015fte se poart\u0103 frumos, pentru c\u0103 \u00eei pas\u0103 s\u0103 nu v\u0103 piard\u0103. Un om care v\u0103 iube\u015fte nu e \u0163\u0103ran cu voi, nu v\u0103 \u00eenjur\u0103 pe net \u015fi nu v\u0103 monteaz\u0103 camere video \u00een cas\u0103.<\/p>\n<p>Nu, nu exist\u0103 un num\u0103r fix de mui luate de la cineva care s\u0103 transforme magic nep\u0103sarea \u015fi b\u0103taia de joc \u00een amor feroce. Iar voi astea care nu v\u0103 prinde\u0163i c\u0103 e cazul s\u0103 MOVE ON de cum descoperi\u0163i c\u0103 \u0103sta e mersul general al lucrurilor sunte\u0163i direct responsabile de faptul c\u0103 v\u0103 e din ce \u00een ce mai r\u0103u.<\/p>\n<p>E modul organismului de a spune: &#8220;F\u0103, e\u015fti proast\u0103? At\u00e2rni dup\u0103 unul care nu te va aprecia \u00een via\u0163a lui. Eu nu m\u0103 joc a\u015fa.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>*<\/p>\n<p>Serios: dac\u0103 copil\u0103ria mea traumatizat\u0103 m-a f\u0103cut s\u0103 m\u0103 feresc instinctiv de genul \u0103sta de abord\u0103ri \u015fi s\u0103 prestez mar\u015f \u00een deceda\u0163ii mei materni de la prima mizerie de genul, MUL\u0162UMESC DIN INIM\u0102, DRAG\u0102 MAM\u0102, DRAG TAT\u0102, C\u0102 M-A\u0162I VACCINAT.<\/p>\n<p>Sorella, \u0103la nu te iube\u015fte. Nici m\u0103car nu te place. \u0102la \u00ee\u015fi bate joc de tine, din dou\u0103 motive: pentru c\u0103 a) e tipologia de om care deriv\u0103 satisfac\u0163ii din asta \u015fi b) \u015fi-a g\u0103sit proasta.<\/p>\n<p>Iart\u0103-mi franche\u0163ea. Cineva trebuie s\u0103 te trezeasc\u0103 la realitate.<\/p>\n<p>Faptul c\u0103 unul scrie ceva frumos pe blogul funda\u0163iei nu are nici o leg\u0103tur\u0103 cu tine. Omul \u00ee\u015fi face treaba, at\u00e2t. Nimic din ce face el nu sugereaz\u0103 c\u0103 ar da doi bani pe tine \u015fi cred sincer c\u0103 te consumi degeaba.<\/p>\n<p>Caut\u0103, te rog, un job \u00een str\u0103in\u0103tate similar \u0103luia la care ai renun\u0163at \u015fi roiul.<\/p>\n<p>\u015ei elibereaz\u0103-te mintal de individ.<\/p>\n<p>Serios? Tot \u0163ie-\u0163i pas\u0103 s\u0103 nu-l calci pe b\u0103t\u0103turi pe unul care-\u015fi bate plua de tine \u015fi pe lung, \u015fi pe lat, \u015fi ocazional \u015fi pe oblic?<\/p>\n<p>WAKE THE FUKX UP! E\u015eTI UN OM ADULT, NU O ADOLESCENT\u0102 ACNEIC\u0102 LA PRIMUL CRUSH.<\/p>\n<p>Tem\u0103: mergi \u015fi f\u0103 sex. Mult, s\u0103n\u0103tos, \u00een fiecare weekend cu altcineva. Singura condi\u0163ie: s\u0103 te trateze frumos \u015fi politicos. S\u0103 afli \u015fi tu cum se poart\u0103 un b\u0103rbat ok cu o femeie care-i place.<\/p>\n<p>Sper c\u0103 \u0163i-am fost util\u0103,<\/p>\n<p>Lorena.<\/p>\n<p>***<\/p>\n<p>\u00ce\u0163i place Po\u015fta redac\u0163iei? Po\u0163i sus\u0163ine \u015fi tu proiectul.<\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/paypal.me\/Trollywood\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignnone size-medium wp-image-14577\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/lorenalupu.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/03\/cafea-300x300.jpg?resize=300%2C300\" alt=\"\" width=\"300\" height=\"300\" srcset=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/lorenalupu.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/03\/cafea.jpg?resize=300%2C300&amp;ssl=1 300w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/lorenalupu.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/03\/cafea.jpg?resize=150%2C150&amp;ssl=1 150w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/lorenalupu.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/03\/cafea.jpg?resize=768%2C768&amp;ssl=1 768w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/lorenalupu.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/03\/cafea.jpg?resize=160%2C160&amp;ssl=1 160w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/lorenalupu.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/03\/cafea.jpg?resize=320%2C320&amp;ssl=1 320w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/lorenalupu.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/03\/cafea.jpg?resize=184%2C184&amp;ssl=1 184w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/lorenalupu.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/03\/cafea.jpg?resize=600%2C600&amp;ssl=1 600w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/lorenalupu.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/03\/cafea.jpg?resize=100%2C100&amp;ssl=1 100w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/lorenalupu.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/03\/cafea.jpg?w=931&amp;ssl=1 931w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 300px) 100vw, 300px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>***<br \/>\nVrei s\u0103 m\u0103 urm\u0103re\u015fti \u00een social media? \u00cemi po\u0163i da like pe <a href=\"https:\/\/www.facebook.com\/lorenaalmighty\/\"><strong>Facebook<\/strong><\/a>, follow pe <strong><a href=\"https:\/\/twitter.com\/lorenalupu\">Twitter<\/a><\/strong> \u015fi <strong><a href=\"https:\/\/www.instagram.com\/lorena.lup\/\">Instagram<\/a><\/strong>.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Intro: Periodic, oferim iubire cititorului nostru. Nu, Gicu, nu sub form\u0103 de sex, stai jos. \u00cen schimb, lu\u0103m o dram\u0103 personal\u0103 pe care mi-o&#46;&#46;&#46;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":17129,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-17127","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-spicy"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/lorenalupu.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/04\/posta.png?fit=1041%2C541&ssl=1","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/lorenalupu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/17127","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/lorenalupu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/lorenalupu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lorenalupu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lorenalupu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=17127"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/lorenalupu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/17127\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":17131,"href":"https:\/\/lorenalupu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/17127\/revisions\/17131"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lorenalupu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/17129"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/lorenalupu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=17127"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lorenalupu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=17127"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lorenalupu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=17127"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}