Am o stare intens\u0103 de panic\u0103, atunci c\u00e2nd citesc \u015ftiri despre cre\u015fterea num\u0103rului de infecta\u0163i cu Covid. \u015ei despre num\u0103rul din ce \u00een ce mai mic de locuri disponibile la spitale.
\u00cen fa\u021ba ochilor mei se proiecteaz\u0103 deja filme cu restric\u021bii re\u00eennoite. Stat \u00een cas\u0103 cu sila. Captiv \u00eentre patru pere\u021bi. Chiar dac\u0103 ai ie\u0219i, nu ai unde s\u0103 bei o bere, nu ai unde s\u0103 m\u0103n\u00e2nci ceva g\u0103tit de altul \u0219i servit frumos cu plating, nu ai unde s\u0103 \u021bop\u0103i pe un bum\u021bi-bum\u021bi, \u0219i nici m\u0103car o plimbare prin parc nu po\u021bi s\u0103 faci, pentru c\u0103 vine garcea s\u0103 te \u00eentrebe de s\u0103n\u0103tate. La propriu.
Deja v\u0103d aruncate cuvinte care \u00eemi dau frisoane: scenariu galben, scenariu ro\u0219u, noul val. \u0218i de c\u00e2te ori le v\u0103d, simt o \u00eempuns\u0103tur\u0103 \u00een stomac. Nu, nu \u00een sensul sexual al cuv\u00e2ntului.\u00a0<\/p>\n
Chiar dac\u0103 nu am con\u0219tientizat pe moment, lockdown-ul a fost extrem de traumatizant pentru noi to\u021bi. Nu vreau s\u0103 m\u0103 g\u00e2ndesc cum a fost pentru cineva extrovertit, care are perpetuu nevoie s\u0103 comunice, s\u0103 interac\u021bioneze, s\u0103 primeasc\u0103 feedback, s\u0103 aib\u0103 lume \u00een jur. Nu vreau s\u0103 m\u0103 g\u00e2ndesc cum a fost pentru un introvertit care avea nevoie de lini\u0219te s\u0103 se reculeag\u0103, dar care s-a pomenit \u00eenchis \u00een cas\u0103 cu tot familionul pe cap.\u00a0<\/p>\n
Aranjamentul meu a fost cel mai norocos: un om singur, fericit s\u0103 fie singur. Un introvertit disperat dup\u0103 lini\u0219te, care a avut parte de c\u00e2t\u0103 lini\u0219te i-a poftit inima. De aceea nici nu m-a\u021bi auzit pl\u00e2ng\u00e2ndu-m\u0103.\u00a0<\/p>\n
Dar reversul monedei s-a sim\u021bit c\u00e2nd am revenit pe pia\u021b\u0103, ca performer. C\u00e2nd am filmat #cf. \u00cemi era greu s\u0103 coordonez echipa, \u0219i dup\u0103 dou\u0103 ore, deja m\u0103 sim\u021beam extenuat\u0103, lucru care \u00eenainte de Covid nu se \u00eent\u00e2mpla. \u00cenainte de Covid, duceam o zi de filmare de 12 ore f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 clipesc, chiar dac\u0103 era filmare cu deplasare, \u0219i coboram din ma\u0219in\u0103 dup\u0103 3 ore de drum.\u00a0<\/p>\n
Izolarea \u0219i munca remote (da, am muncit remote) ne-a f\u0103cut mai pu\u021bin disciplina\u021bi, mai pu\u021bin team playeri, mai pu\u021bin rezisten\u021bi la efort, mai labili \u0219i mai fragili emo\u021bional.\u00a0<\/p>\n
\u0218i nota bene. Poate c\u0103 ar\u0103t ca o floricic\u0103, dar eu sunt persoana care a \u00eendurat ani \u00een \u0219ir hate, \u00eent\u00e2i pentru activitatea de blogger, cu to\u021bi frustra\u021bii care voiau s\u0103 extrag\u0103 putere submin\u00e2ndu-m\u0103, apoi pentru reclama cu femeile independente, apoi pentru toate rahaturile care au urmat. Fragilitatea emo\u021bional\u0103 nu m-a caracterizat niciodat\u0103. Trec peste p\u0103rerile \u0219i intrigile altora cu relaxare \u0219i superioritate.\u00a0<\/p>\n
Dar ce nu reu\u0219esc al\u021bi oameni s\u0103 fac\u0103, iat\u0103, reu\u0219e\u0219te izolarea de luni \u00een \u0219ir la domiciliu.\u00a0<\/p>\n
Nu m\u0103 simt preg\u0103tit\u0103 de un nou lockdown, nici m\u0103car \u00een cea mai fericit\u0103 formul\u0103, cea de introvertit care st\u0103 singur. Am nevoie de via\u021b\u0103 social\u0103.<\/p>\n
E un lucru pe care nu m\u0103 a\u0219teptam s\u0103-l afirm, nu \u00een condi\u021biile \u00een care, de c\u00e2nd am devenit showgirl \u0219i blogger citit de oameni, am suferit dintotdeauna de un exces de via\u021b\u0103 social\u0103, p\u00e2n\u0103 c\u00e2nd ajunsesem ca \u00een gluma aia cu o m\u0103mic\u0103 la psiholog.\u00a0<\/p>\n
-Care e problema, doamn\u0103?\u00a0<\/p>\n
-Nici o problem\u0103, dar vreau \u0219i eu s\u0103 dorm o or\u0103.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n
\u00cen acest punct, dup\u0103 ce am hibernat un an \u0219i ceva, \u0219i mi-am dat seama c\u00e2t \u00eemi e de greu s\u0103 m\u0103 readaptez la ritmul urban – chit c\u0103 ritmul urban \u00eensu\u0219i a pierdut mult din intensitate, \u00eemi dau seama c\u0103 un nou lockdown m-ar demola complet.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Voi cum v\u0103 sim\u021bi\u021bi? <\/p>\n\n\n\n
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