{"id":26549,"date":"2024-05-30T09:22:32","date_gmt":"2024-05-30T06:22:32","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/lorenalupu.com\/blog\/?p=26549"},"modified":"2024-05-30T09:22:38","modified_gmt":"2024-05-30T06:22:38","slug":"de-ce-ti-e-cu-adevarat-frica","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/lorenalupu.com\/blog\/de-ce-ti-e-cu-adevarat-frica\/","title":{"rendered":"De ce \u0163i-e cu adev\u0103rat fric\u0103?"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

Citeam o \u015ftire despre Bruce Willis. Eroul multor filme de ac\u0163iune din copil\u0103ria \u015fi adolescen\u0163a noastr\u0103. Dar suficient de inteligent \u015fi de talentat pentru a juca \u015fi roluri complexe \u015fi nuan\u0163ate \u00een drame. \u015ei at\u00e2t de amuzant \u00een comedii. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Citeam cum omul nostru \u015fi-a pierdut cariera dintr-un \u015fut pentru c\u0103 nu mai poate juca. Pentru c\u0103 sufer\u0103 de o boal\u0103 degenerativ\u0103 numit\u0103 afazie, care duce la inabilitatea de a te exprima \u00een cuvinte \u015fi de a \u00een\u0163elege ce spun ceilal\u0163i. Boala de care sufer\u0103 nediagnosticat 40% din sec\u0163iunea de comentarii. (Glum\u0103. Dar mai mult adev\u0103r.) <\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u015ei mi-am dat seama c\u0103, p\u00e2n\u0103 nu demult, aveam o singur\u0103 fric\u0103. Mi-era fric\u0103 s\u0103 nu ajung vreodat\u0103 \u00eentr-un context \u00een care libertatea mea de mi\u015fcare \u015fi de expresie s\u0103 fie \u00eengr\u0103dite de al\u0163i oameni. De aceea nu m-am m\u0103ritat nici c\u00e2nd am fost vrai\u015fte de \u00eendr\u0103gostit\u0103, de aceea \u00eemi g\u0103sesc rapid ie\u015firea din interac\u0163iuni \u00een care nu \u00eemi simt limitele respectate \u015fi de aceea nu reac\u0163ionez amabil la porunci \u015fi directive, \u00een special c\u00e2nd vin gratuit, de la oameni c\u0103rora nu le datorez nimic. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sigur c\u0103 asta vine din copil\u0103rie, pentru c\u0103 maic\u0103-mea \u00eemi refuza sistematic orice drept la idei \u015fi dorin\u0163e de sine st\u0103t\u0103toare, \u015fi c\u00e2nd am tirat-o de acas\u0103 la 18 ani, mi-am spus c\u0103 prefer s\u0103 v\u00e2nd covrigi pe strad\u0103 sau s\u0103 sp\u0103l parbrize dec\u00e2t s\u0103 mai permit vreodat\u0103 cuiva s\u0103 m\u0103 foloseasc\u0103 pe post de sac de box emo\u0163ional. Sau fizic. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Dar odat\u0103 ce \u00eenaintez \u00een v\u00e2rst\u0103, de\u015fi merg regulat la analize \u015fi mi-am f\u0103cut \u015fi un RMN care a ie\u015fit \u0163ipl\u0103, mi-e o fric\u0103 cresc\u00e2nd\u0103 de boli degenerative. Nu mi-e fric\u0103 de degenerarea fizic\u0103. Voi face sport s\u0103-mi men\u0163in s\u0103n\u0103tatea, for\u0163a \u015fi flexibilitatea, \u00eemi voi \u00eengriji mereu tenul \u015fi corpul, iar dac\u0103 \u00eencepe s\u0103 at\u00e2rne ceva pe mine, am esteticianul pe short dial. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Mi-e fric\u0103 de degenerarea mintal\u0103. De toate acele boli care vin treptat peste tine \u015fi \u00ee\u0163i anuleaz\u0103 personalitatea \u015fi spiritul. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Am suferit ca un c\u00e2ine c\u00e2nd a murit regizoarea \u015fi profesoara de teatru Sanda Manu. Mi-a fost profesoar\u0103 \u00een facultate. \u015ei, chiar dac\u0103 mi-a repro\u015fat \u015fi ea c\u0103 sunt gras\u0103 – trendul anilor 2000 era s\u0103 fii slab\u0103-schelet, s\u0103 po\u0163i fi folosit\u0103 de xilofon \u00een caz de nevoie – nu a f\u0103cut-o niciodat\u0103 la modul agresiv \u015fi anihilant, care era maniera vremii. Mai mult ca un fel de teasing. Pe de alt\u0103 parte, imagina\u0163ia, creativitatea \u015fi libertatea de expresie pe care mi le-a insuflat mi-au dat aripi de RedBull. G\u00e2ndul c\u0103 omul \u0103la genial, care mi-a eliberat toate blocajele mintale \u015fi emo\u0163ionale venite dintr-o copil\u0103rie sub papuc isteric \u015fi ira\u0163ional, a ajuns s\u0103 nu \u015ftie cine este \u015fi s\u0103 nu mai poat\u0103 vorbi mi-a sf\u00e2\u015fiat inima. Nu am t\u0103b\u0103r\u00e2t, evident, s\u0103-i \u00eencalc intimitatea ultimelor zile pe care a ales din ini\u0163iativ\u0103 proprie s\u0103 le petreac\u0103 izolat\u0103 de lume, tocmai pentru c\u0103 nu voia s\u0103 fie v\u0103zut\u0103 a\u015fa. Am ales s\u0103 mi-o amintesc genial\u0103, sclipitoare, sarcastic\u0103 \u015fi plin\u0103 de via\u0163\u0103, infinit de de\u015fteapt\u0103 \u015fi de creativ\u0103, cum era \u00een zilele mele de UNATC. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

E bine c\u0103 a evoluat medicina \u015fi c\u0103 bolile degenerative pot fi \u0163inute c\u00e2t de c\u00e2t sub control. \u015ei totu\u015fi. \u00cenc\u0103 nu le \u015ftim pe toate \u015fi \u00eenc\u0103 nu \u015ftim ce se ascunde \u00een creierul nostru. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Cea mai mare fric\u0103 a mea e s\u0103 nu ajung \u00een aceast\u0103 siitua\u0163ie. E adev\u0103rat, str\u0103bunic\u0103-mea cu care se spune c\u0103 seam\u0103n era brici de de\u015fteapt\u0103 \u015fi la 98 de ani c\u00e2nd a murit. M\u0103 ag\u0103\u0163 de asta. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Vou\u0103 de ce v\u0103 e fric\u0103? <\/p>\n\n\n\n

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