\u0218tii cum e c\u00e2nd vezi o reclam\u0103\u00a0nou\u0103\u00a0care\u00a0\u00ee\u0163i promite sl\u0103bire rapid\u0103\u00a0\u015fi spectaculoas\u0103, f\u0103r\u0103\u00a0diet\u0103\u00a0\u015fi f\u0103r\u0103\u00a0sport. Poate e vr\u0103jeal\u0103. Sau poate e o nou\u0103 manier\u0103\u00a0de a strecura o amfetamin\u0103\u00a0\u00een farmacii, p\u0103c\u0103lind vigilen\u0163a autorit\u0103\u0163ilor. A\u0219a mi-am amintit\u00a0\u015fi de pastila-minune care rula fin cu o genera\u0163ie\u00a0\u00een urm\u0103, regenonul, a c\u0103rui substan\u0163\u0103\u00a0activ\u0103, amfepramona, f\u0103cea o gr\u0103mad\u0103\u00a0de lume s\u0103-l foloseasc\u0103\u00a0pe post de drog de petrecere. Am o prieten\u0103\u00a0care a \u00eenghi\u021bit cinci tablete dintr-un\u00a0\u015fut, ca s\u0103-\u015fi scrie lucrarea de licen\u0163\u0103\u00a0\u00eentr-o singur\u0103\u00a0noapte \u2013 o poveste cu final previzibil, desigur.<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Bun, sibutramina nu e un preparat final, ci substan\u0163a activ\u0103\u00a0a unei noi serii de pastile de sl\u0103bit, a c\u0103rei div\u0103\u00a0este Reductilul. E tot un derivat de amfetamin\u0103 \u015fi te sl\u0103be\u015fte pe acelea\u015fi principii: se hr\u0103ne\u015fte din sistemul t\u0103u nervos central. A\u0219a c\u0103\u00a0ni\u0219te zile mai t\u00e2rziu m-am\u00a0\u00eent\u00e2lnit cu Artan\u00a0\u00een parcul IOR, vizavi de un chio\u015fc cu hamburgeri\u00a0\u015fi r\u0103coritoare\u00a0\u0219i l-am rugat s\u0103\u00a0detalieze.<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n B\u0103i, totul a\u00a0\u00eenceput la Bac\u0103u\u2026 dar mi-e greu s\u0103-\u0163i vorbesc despre asta, m\u0103\u00a0duc s\u0103\u00a0aduc ni\u015fte beri.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n A\u015fa, hai s\u0103-\u0163i zic: eu din zece\u00a0\u00een zece ani am crize legate de\u00a0look<\/em>. Acum zece ani, la Bac\u0103u, aveam 40 de ani, iar Timpuri Noi era\u00a0\u00een culmea succesului. Toat\u0103 lumea se\u00a0\u00eentrecea s\u0103\u00a0ne bage bani\u00a0\u00een buzunar. Mai ales distribuitorii de\u00a0\u0163ig\u0103ri. Bun,\u00a0\u015fi dup\u0103\u00a0concert, ne-au dus\u00a0\u0103\u015ftia la o petrecere, pe noi\u00a0\u015fi pe Holograf, iar sampleri\u0163ele\u00a0\u2013\u00a0frumuse\u0163i de genul fotomodel, s\u0103-\u0163i pierzi ochii pe ele!\u00a0\u2013\u00a0l-au\u00a0\u00eenconjurat pe Bittman.\u00a0\u015ei Bittman le-a\u00a0\u00eentrebat:\u00a0\u201eDar pe Artanu\u2019\u00a0nu-l\u00a0\u015fti\u0163i?\u201d\u00a0S-au uitat alea la mine cu o sil\u0103\u00a0profund\u0103: u\u0103\u0103\u0103\u0103. Uite un gras violent. Timid\u00a0\u00een via\u0163\u0103, dar violent pe scen\u0103. A\u015fa m\u0103\u00a0manifest eu. Noi eram forma\u0163ia pentru b\u0103ie\u0163i, Bittman\u00a0\u015fi ai lui erau pentru fete. De\u015fi n-am\u00a0\u015ftiut niciodat\u0103\u00a0s\u0103\u00a0le plac b\u0103ie\u0163ilor, am\u00a0\u015ftiut doar s\u0103\u00a0le displac fetelor. Dar divaghez.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n \u00cen fine, b\u0103c\u0103uancele m-au marcat\u00a0\u015fi atunci am sl\u0103bit f\u0103r\u0103\u00a0medicamente. Dar la 50 de ani e alt\u0103\u00a0poveste. Sim\u0163i c\u0103\u00a0schimbi carcasa, c\u0103\u00a0te despar\u0163i de ceva ce a fost\u00a0\u00eentotdeauna al t\u0103u\u00a0\u015fi te mu\u0163i\u00a0\u00eentr-o cas\u0103\u00a0nou\u0103, care nu-\u0163i prea place. E o v\u00e2rst\u0103\u00a0dubioas\u0103.\u00a0\u015ei atunci m-am dus la doctor. Dar,\u00a0\u00een ultima vreme, noi, rom\u00e2nii, ne-am pierdut to\u0163i doctorii. S-au angajat cu to\u0163ii geamba\u015fi la medicamente. Care marcheaz\u0103\u00a0comisionul mai mare ia medicamentul minune.\u00a0\u015ei a\u015fa am f\u0103cut cuno\u015ftin\u0163\u0103\u00a0cu medicamentul minune.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n De la prima cutie n-am sim\u0163it nimic. La a doua am\u00a0\u00eenceput realmente s\u0103\u00a0dau jos c\u00e2te un kilogram pe zi. Dar nu eliminam apa, ci gr\u0103simea propriu-zis\u0103, untura. Era ireal. M\u0103\u00a0uitam\u00a0\u00een oglind\u0103\u00a0\u015fi nu m\u0103\u00a0recuno\u015fteam. M\u0103\u00a0uitam pe interior la mine\u00a0\u015fi nu m\u0103\u00a0recuno\u015fteam nici at\u00e2t.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n Eu nu-s genul de tip care pl\u00e2nge. N-am pl\u00e2ns nici\u00a0\u00een copil\u0103rie, nici\u00a0\u00eenainte\u00a0\u015fi nici dup\u0103. Dar sibutramina asta\u00a0\u00eemi d\u0103dea o viziune at\u00e2t de morbid\u0103\u00a0despre lume, \u00eenc\u00e2t pl\u00e2ngeam la ore fixe.\u00a0\u015ei nu e o metafor\u0103: pl\u00e2ngeam cu batist\u0103, cu lacrimi, cu muci\u00a0\u2013\u00a0cum se pl\u00e2nge. De la 10 la 11\u00a0\u00een fiecare diminea\u0163\u0103. M\u0103\u00a0fofilam de orice alte obliga\u0163ii, s\u0103\u00a0fiu singur la ora aia\u00a0\u015fi s\u0103\u00a0pl\u00e2ng.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n Apoi au\u00a0\u00eenceput s\u0103\u00a0m\u0103\u00a0chinuie st\u0103rile de vin\u0103.\u00a0\u00cen mod normal, eu, tu\u00a0\u015fi toat\u0103\u00a0lumea ac\u0163ion\u0103m condu\u015fi de instinctul de autoconservare, ne minimaliz\u0103m vinile fa\u0163\u0103\u00a0de al\u0163ii, ca s\u0103\u00a0putem tr\u0103i mai confortabil cu noi\u00a0\u00een\u015fine. C\u00e2nd iei sibutramin\u0103\u00a0p\u00e2n\u0103\u00a0\u015fi instinctul\u00a0\u0103sta de autoconservare se estompeaz\u0103, devine ceva vag\u00a0\u015fi imprecis. Uite, cum st\u0103m noi pe banca asta din IOR, ca doi titanezi veritabili care deap\u0103n\u0103\u00a0amintiri, vezi tu camionul\u00a0\u0103la din intersec\u0163ie? Da. Dac\u0103\u00a0\u015foferul lui ar \u00eennebuni brusc\u00a0\u015fi ar veni spre noi cu toat\u0103\u00a0viteza, tu ai s\u0103ri\u00a0\u00een dreapta, eu\u00a0\u00een st\u00e2nga\u00a0\u015fi ne-am salva pielea. Dar dac\u0103\u00a0a\u015f\u00a0fi fost pe sibutramin\u0103, n-a\u015f\u00a0fi f\u0103cut dec\u00e2t s\u0103\u00a0stau nemi\u015fcat, aici, pe banc\u0103 \u015fi s\u0103-l privesc fascinat cum vine spre mine, eventual s\u0103\u00a0m\u0103\u00a0minunez nemi\u015fcat c\u0103\u00a0o s\u0103\u00a0mor\u00a0\u00een urm\u0103toarele c\u00e2teva minute. Dar asta se vedea dinafar\u0103, de parc\u0103\u00a0ar fi vorba despre moartea altcuiva. Nu mai exist\u0103\u00a0control. Te ui\u0163i la tine ca la un om str\u0103in\u00a0\u015fi te minunezi de tot ce i se \u00eent\u00e2mpl\u0103\u00a0str\u0103inului\u00a0\u0103stuia.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n Prospectul zice ceva de insomnie, gre\u0163uri, ame\u0163eli, dureri de cap, spasme musculare. N-a fost cazul meu. Dar depresia asta, nene, era ceva\u2026 Ce-i drept, mi-a fost de folos\u00a0\u00een concerte. C\u00e2nd suferi, defilezi pe cai mai pitici, iar asta scoate automat la iveal\u0103\u00a0artistul din tine. Dac\u0103\u00a0este. Pe scen\u0103\u00a0e bine s\u0103\u00a0fii vulnerabil.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n \u00centr-o zi am avut o viziune. Am halucinat la propriu.\u00a0\u015etii, medicii zic c\u0103\u00a0fiecare dintre noi are 150\u00a0\u2013\u00a0200 de persoane care\u00a0\u00eei sunt bine cunoscute, c\u0103rora le identifici fizionomia, numele,\u00a0\u015ftii cu ce se ocup\u0103,\u00a0\u015ftii de unde sunt\u00a0\u015fi cam ce texte au. (E jenant c\u0103\u00a0eu sunt\u00a0\u00een lista de 200 a multora care nu figureaz\u0103\u00a0\u00een lista mea,\u00a0iar \u0103sta e un motiv de vinov\u0103\u0163ie\u00a0\u00een plus.) Bun,\u00a0\u00een viziunea asta a mea ap\u0103reau to\u0163i cei 200 de cunoscu\u0163i ca\u00a0\u00eentr-un tablou mare de absolvire a liceului sau a facult\u0103\u0163ii \u015fi m\u0103\u00a0priveau. Nu scoteau nicio vorb\u0103, dar le auzeam g\u00e2ndurile.\u00a0\u015ei g\u00e2ndul fiec\u0103ruia m\u0103 \u00eenvinov\u0103\u0163ea de o gre\u015feal\u0103\u00a0pe care o comisesem\u00a0fa\u0163\u0103 de fiecare. Era sinistru. 200 de acuza\u0163ii mute, concomitente, de la 200 de oameni care st\u0103teau\u00a0\u00een fa\u0163a ta\u00a0\u015fi te priveau. Printre ei era\u00a0\u015fi Florin Dumitrescu, acest minunat poet c\u0103ruia noi nu i-am dat toat\u0103\u00a0aten\u0163ia pe care ar fi meritat-o \u015fi care s-a\u00a0\u201er\u0103zbunat\u201d, valorific\u00e2ndu-se pe deplin cu Sarmalele Reci. Uite, numai ideea aia fin\u0103\u00a0din\u00a0\u201eVioleta duce g\u0103leata la gunoi\u201d, dar to\u0163i b\u0103ie\u0163ii din scara C o a\u015fteapt\u0103\u00a0cu gurile c\u0103scate s\u0103\u00a0fac\u0103\u00a0asta. Gunoiul unora e comoara celorlal\u0163i. Sau Cristi Puiu, care a insistat at\u00e2t de mult s\u0103\u00a0joc rolul titular din\u00a0\u201eAurora\u201d,\u00a0\u015fi pe care l-am refuzat proste\u015fte. Proste\u015fte, pentru c\u0103\u00a0e un regizor fenomenal\u00a0\u015fi\u00a0\u00eemi f\u0103cea o onoare. Dar eu sunt un actor at\u00e2t de penibil, nu\u00a0\u015ftiu niciodat\u0103\u00a0s\u0103\u00a0\u00eenv\u0103\u0163\u00a0texte.\u00a0\u00cen fine.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n Ideea e c\u0103\u00a0dup\u0103\u00a0halucina\u0163ia asta\u00a0\u015fi toate tr\u0103irile aferente am decis s\u0103\u00a0m\u0103\u00a0las. Trecuser\u0103\u00a0dou\u0103\u00a0luni, sl\u0103bisem 28 de kilograme, dar tensiunea psihic\u0103\u00a0devenise de nesuportat.\u00a0M\u0103 g\u00e2ndeam la sinucidere. Nu, nu la modul\u00a0\u0103la concret, s\u0103-mi aleg o arm\u0103 sau un mijloc, s\u0103\u00a0\u00eemi fac planuri\u00a0\u2013\u00a0dar m\u0103\u00a0jucam cu ideea, ca un adolescent dezam\u0103git\u00a0\u00een dragoste.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n \u00centre timp, au scos sibutramina\u00a0\u00een afara legii. Mare p\u0103cat. Sl\u0103beai cu ea \u015fi chiar tripurile de genul\u00a0\u0103sta erau stimulente pentru o parte din tine care putea crea ceva nou. Dar dac\u0103\u00a0m-a\u015f\u00a0reapuca, m-a\u015f\u00a0duce neap\u0103rat la un medic\u00a0\u015fi a\u015f\u00a0cere un tratament cu antidepresive. Nu mai vreau s\u0103\u00a0ajung acolo. O or\u0103\u00a0de pl\u00e2ns pe zi e cam mult, totu\u015fi.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n \u00cen fa\u0163a noastr\u0103\u00a0trec ni\u015fte joggeri\u00a0\u00een\u00a0\u015for\u0163i, cu adida\u015fi pu\u0163in uza\u0163i. Profit\u0103\u00a0c\u0103\u00a0azi nu e z\u0103pu\u015feal\u0103. E\u00a0\u015fi asta o modalitate de men\u0163inere a greut\u0103\u0163ii.\u00a0\u201eDar\u00a0\u015fi eu alergam\u201d, continu\u0103\u00a0Artanu\u2019.\u00a0\u201eParadoxal, aveam energie fizic\u0103. Poate\u00a0\u015fi\u00a0\u0103\u015ftia or fi pe ceva\u00a0\u2013\u00a0o nou\u0103\u00a0amfetamin\u0103\u00a0de sl\u0103bit, care\u00a0\u00eenc\u0103\u00a0nu a fost identificat\u0103?\u201d<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n ***<\/p>\n\n\n\n <\/p>\n\n\n\n Dac\u0103 \u021bi-a pl\u0103cut articolul, arat\u0103-\u021bi sus\u021binerea cu o dona\u021bie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n ***<\/p>\n\n\n\n Vrei s\u0103 m\u0103 urm\u0103re\u015fti \u00een social media? \u00cemi po\u0163i da follow pe Facebook<\/strong><\/a> \u015fi Instagram<\/a><\/strong>, subscribe pe YouTube<\/a><\/strong> \u015fi pe TikTok<\/a><\/strong>.<\/p>\n\n\n\n <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" \u00cen amintirea unuia dintre cei mai talenta\u021bi arti\u0219ti pe care i-a avut Rom\u00e2nia, voi reposta un reportaj pe care l-am f\u0103cut cu el pentru...<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":28858,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_feature_clip_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2},"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-28857","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-spicy"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/lorenalupu.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/12\/511269002_10031381216926964_517470454019455321_n.jpg?fit=1500%2C2000&ssl=1","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/lorenalupu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/28857","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/lorenalupu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/lorenalupu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lorenalupu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lorenalupu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=28857"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/lorenalupu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/28857\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":28859,"href":"https:\/\/lorenalupu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/28857\/revisions\/28859"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lorenalupu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/28858"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/lorenalupu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=28857"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lorenalupu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=28857"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lorenalupu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=28857"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}![\"\"](\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/lorenalupu.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/01\/paypal-.jpg?w=700&ssl=1\")
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