{"id":29155,"date":"2026-02-17T13:35:53","date_gmt":"2026-02-17T10:35:53","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/lorenalupu.com\/blog\/?p=29155"},"modified":"2026-02-17T13:35:57","modified_gmt":"2026-02-17T10:35:57","slug":"port-doliul-vietii-mele","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/lorenalupu.com\/blog\/port-doliul-vietii-mele\/","title":{"rendered":"Port doliul vie\u021bii mele"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

E una dintre primele replici ale piesei \u201dPesc\u0103ru\u0219ul\u201d de Cehov. \u201dPort doliul vie\u021bii mele\u201d. Partea bun\u0103, mai ales la personajele \u201dmici\u201d ale lui Cehov, este c\u0103 replicile lor sunt interpretabile \u0219i c\u0103 po\u021bi s\u0103 le construie\u0219ti cum vrei. \u0218i de obicei, tanti care poart\u0103 doliul vie\u021bii ei e construit\u0103 ca o proast\u0103 melodramatic\u0103, \u0219i e un rol de comedie. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Realitatea e c\u0103 nu prea stau oamenii s\u0103 se \u00eentrebe cum ar ar\u0103ta doliul vie\u021bii cuiva, dac\u0103 s-ar opri o secund\u0103 s\u0103 ia acele replici \u00een serios. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00cen ultimele opt luni, m-am confruntat cu decese pe band\u0103 rulant\u0103. M\u0103tu\u0219a mea preferat\u0103, spiritul liber al familiei (\u0219i oaia ei neagr\u0103, chit c\u0103 era mai inteligent\u0103 \u0219i mai creativ\u0103 dec\u00e2t restul la un loc). Mama, cu care am tr\u0103it \u00een 70% certuri \u0219i 30% r\u0103zboi rece, dar calitatea rela\u021biei pe care o ai cu p\u0103rin\u021bii nu influen\u021beaz\u0103 c\u00e2t de mult te zdrobe\u0219te moartea lor. Prieteni apropia\u021bi. Fo\u0219ti prieteni apropia\u021bi. Prieteni \u00eendep\u0103rta\u021bi. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

De c\u00e2nd m\u0103 \u0219tiu, sunt omul care se treze\u0219te de diminea\u021ba \u0219i pune \u00eentrebarea: De ce mai r\u00e2dem azi? Caut un motiv de glum\u0103 \u0219i de umor \u00een orice, tratez toate problemele ca pe solu\u021bii \u00een devenire \u0219i dup\u0103 ce le rezolv, uit c\u0103 au existat. Via\u021ba mea e o colec\u021bie de momente vesele, \u00eentr-un r\u00e2u de bun\u0103 dispozi\u021bie care e starea mea natural\u0103 \u0219i pe care o infuzez con\u0219tient \u0219i celor din jur, dac\u0103 sunt dispu\u0219i s-o primeasc\u0103. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Am mai avut necazuri \u00een via\u021b\u0103. Le-am rezolvat. Le-am scos la liman. Le-am tratat ca pe provoc\u0103ri, le-am c\u0103lcat \u00een picioare \u0219i am \u00eenfipt drapelul \u201dBad B!tch Energy!\u201d \u00een ele. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Dar moartea nu are solu\u021bie. E singura problem\u0103 care, obiectiv, oric\u00e2t ai sta \u00een cap, nu se poate redresa \u0219i nu se poate replia. E singurul punct \u00een care o mie de idei bune nu ajut\u0103 la nimic. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u0218i ajungi s\u0103 te \u00eentrebi: de ce at\u00e2ta durere deodat\u0103, lovitur\u0103 dup\u0103 lovitur\u0103? Oare chiar exist\u0103 inten\u021bie \u00een spatele universului \u0219i \u00eencearc\u0103 s\u0103 \u00eemi transmit\u0103 mie personal ceva? \u0218i dac\u0103 da, ce? C\u0103 nu sunt at\u00e2t de \u0219mecher\u0103 cum credeam? \u0218tiu asta. Dac\u0103 m\u0103 d\u0103deam \u0219mecher\u0103, aveam \u0219i eu ma\u0219in\u0103 de neam prost \u0219i nu m\u0103 mul\u021bumeam s\u0103 \u00eenchiriez o garsonier\u0103 \u00eentr-un cartier lini\u0219tit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ieri, fratele meu \u0219i cu mine am terminat succesiunea dup\u0103 mama. E sf\u00e2\u0219ietor de dureros s\u0103 \u00eenchizi contul bancar al unui om, s\u0103 \u00eei lichidezi orice dovad\u0103 a existen\u021bei, s\u0103 \u00eei \u00eempar\u021bi bunurile, la care \u0219tii c\u0103 a \u021binut mai mult dec\u00e2t la tine. \u0218i \u00een mod cinic, acum sunt ale tale, cu tot bagajul lor de suferin\u021b\u0103 \u0219i traum\u0103. St\u0103team am\u00e2ndoi la o cafea \u0219i ne \u0219tergeam lacrimile, \u00een timp ce eu \u00eencercam glume \u0219i \u00eemi ie\u0219eau dad jokes. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Doliul, starea asta de asumare treptat\u0103 a ideii c\u0103 X nu mai exist\u0103 \u0219i c\u0103 totul s-a terminat definitiv cu genul de punct pe care numai moartea \u00eel poate pune, e imposibil de rezolvat. Nu \u201dcuno\u0219ti un b\u0103iat care se ocup\u0103 cu de-astea\u201d. Nu ai un avocat bun care s\u0103 medieze doliul, o sum\u0103 de bani cu care s\u0103 cumperi o or\u0103 din momentele voastre bune \u00eenapoi. De\u0219i, la c\u00e2t de realist face AI scene cu Brad Pitt \u00een ultima vreme, e de a\u0219teptat ca \u00een zece ani s\u0103 reproduc\u0103 fidel certuri cu maic\u0103-ta. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

E genul de stare care te face prieten cu suferin\u021ba, starea de care ai fugit m\u00e2nc\u00e2nd p\u0103m\u00e2ntul toat\u0103 via\u021ba ta. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Dac\u0103 m-ar pune cineva acum s\u0103 spun replica \u201dPort doliul vie\u021bii mele\u201d, garantat nu a\u0219 accepta versiunea de proast\u0103 melodramatic\u0103 specific\u0103 regizorilor rom\u00e2ni de teatru. Nu e nimic melodramatic \u00een doliu, dac\u0103 nu e\u0219ti genul bocitoare g\u0103l\u0103gioas\u0103. Dar e\u0219ti zdruncinat \u00een interior, iar \u0219i iar \u0219i iar, p\u00e2n\u0103 \u00een punctul \u00een care te \u00eentrebi dac\u0103 mai are sens s\u0103 te ridici din pat azi, s\u0103 mai auzi c\u0103 a murit cineva, sau e mai simplu s\u0103 tragi plapuma \u00een cap \u0219i s\u0103 te culci la loc. Noroc cu m\u00e2\u021bul, care \u00ee\u021bi c\u00e2nt\u0103 instant megahitul \u201dMi-e foame, \u00een mor\u021bii m\u0103-tii!\u201d \u0219i r\u0103getele lui te poart\u0103 pe sus p\u00e2n\u0103 la castron. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u0218i da, fac terapie, altfel nu aveam curajul s\u0103 admit toate astea. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

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\u00ce\u021bi place s\u0103 cite\u0219ti aceste articole? Po\u021bi ajuta \u00een mod direct la scrierea lor. Iat\u0103 cum.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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