{"id":7880,"date":"2014-05-09T12:26:33","date_gmt":"2014-05-09T12:26:33","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/lorenalupu.wordpress.com\/?p=7880"},"modified":"2014-05-09T12:26:33","modified_gmt":"2014-05-09T12:26:33","slug":"nu-recunosc-fiindca-mi-e-frica","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/lorenalupu.com\/blog\/nu-recunosc-fiindca-mi-e-frica\/","title":{"rendered":"Nu recunosc fiindc\u0103 mi-e fric\u0103"},"content":{"rendered":"

Text de Ana Barton<\/p>\n

Men\u0163iune: Ana mi l-a dat pentru o revist\u0103 pe care o s-o facem noi dou\u0103 \u015fi \u00eenc\u0103 c\u00e2\u0163iva, \u015fi pentru care umbl\u0103m cu basca-n m\u00e2n\u0103 dup\u0103 finan\u0163\u0103ri zilele astea. Dar, \u00een virtutea modului din ce \u00een ce mai jignitor \u00een care sunt trata\u0163i salaria\u0163ii – vezi Pro-ul \u015fi concedierea cu aruncare \u00een strad\u0103<\/a>, am ales s\u0103-l public azi.<\/em><\/p>\n

\"ana\"<\/a><\/p>\n

\u015ei nu orice fel de fric\u0103. Una amestecat\u0103 cu ni\u0163ic\u0103 supersti\u0163ie, o spaim\u0103 misticoid\u0103 de-ntrulucare a stelelor de n-o s\u0103 mai \u015ftie nici ele care \u015fi cum s-a n\u0103scut \u015fi, mai ales, c\u00e2nd \u015fi cu ce scop.
\nAm \u00eent\u00e2lnit \u00een ultimii doi ani neverosimil de mul\u0163i oameni care tr\u0103iesc asta, care tr\u0103iesc a\u015fa. Da, aleg s-o fac\u0103, \u015ftiu. Dar \u015ftiu \u015fi de ce. De fric\u0103.
\nS\u0103 v\u0103 spun despre ce e vorba. Oamenii \u0103\u015ftia speria\u0163i de ziua de m\u00e2ine, \u00eengrozi\u0163i de aia de poim\u00e2ine \u015fi de-a dreptu\u2019 terifia\u0163i de ce-o fi peste asta scriu. Fac pres\u0103 de orice fel, adic\u0103telea scriu \u00een ziare \u015fi reviste \u015fi\/sau lucreaz\u0103-n televiziuni.
\nNu sunt pl\u0103ti\u0163i cu lunile. A\u015fteapt\u0103 ziua de salariu ca pe Parusie, dar ziua aia vine de fiecare dat\u0103 cu acelea\u015fi explica\u0163ii: n-are patronu\u2019, c\u0103 e am\u0103r\u00e2t, vai de capul lui. Las\u2019 c\u0103-\u015fi schimb\u0103 ma\u015finile ca pe chilo\u0163i, e am\u0103r\u00e2t, nu-i treaba ta c\u0103 \u015fi le schimb\u0103, \u0103ia-s al\u0163i bani, habar n-ai de chestiunile financiare, tu e\u015fti \u0103la care scrie, creativul, stai \u015fi-a\u015fteapt\u0103. Vor veni \u015fi banii, se poate?
\nP\u0103i, se tot poate. C\u0103 banii nu vin, iar tu a\u015ftep\u0163i ca hipopotamu\u2019 s\u0103 plou\u0103, s\u0103 creasc\u0103 apa-n r\u00e2u, ca s\u0103-l po\u0163i trece. C\u0103-ntre timp faci datorii peste tot, de tre\u2019 s\u0103-\u0163i cumperi, ba\u015fca, \u015fi-o agend\u0103 nou\u0103, c\u0103 memoria ta aia monstruoas\u0103 \u015fi invidiat\u0103 de toat\u0103 lumea chiar nu le mai poate face fa\u0163\u0103.
\nDac\u0103 e\u015fti \u00een rela\u0163ii bune cu ai t\u0103i, \u015ftiu \u015fi ei m\u0103car un pic despre situa\u0163ia asta, dac\u0103-s rela\u0163ii de dependen\u0163\u0103 de orice fel, atunci cunosc toate detaliile, \u00eempar\u0163i cu ei disperarea asta-n timp ce-\u015fi str\u00e2ng toate marginile pe care le pot inventa \u015fi te-ajut\u0103 s\u0103 supravie\u0163uie\u015fti. Dac\u0103 nu, o duci singur, c\u0103z\u00e2nd c\u00e2te o treapt\u0103 zilnic, iar \u00een zilele proaste, c\u00e2te dou\u0103-trei, cu v\u00e2n\u0103t\u0103i la noad\u0103.
\nPrietenii… ah, prietenii! Unii chiar \u00ee\u0163i sunt \u015fi te sus\u0163in cum pot, al\u0163ii-mpr\u0103\u015ftie-n lume informa\u0163ii c\u00e2t mai l\u0103\u0163ite despre situa\u0163ia ta \u015fi le afli \u015fi tu, chircindu-te, c\u00e2nd te-ntreab\u0103 unii, al\u0163ii dac\u0103-i adev\u0103rat c\u0103 nu \u0163i-ai luat salariul de dou\u0103, trei, patru, ba chiar \u015fapte luni. Dac\u0103 e vreunul mai performant de \u015fapte, s\u0103 spuie, ca s\u0103-l trecem pe locul unu.
\nDe ce nu pleci tu de-acolo? Ei, sunt multe motive \u015fi toate-\u015fi \u00eenfig cr\u0103ci\u015forii de acarian \u00een acela\u015fi timp. \u00cent\u00e2i, c\u0103 e\u015fti parte a proiectului \u0103luia de la-nceput sau de mult\u0103 vreme. Ori de pu\u0163in\u0103, dar te-ai dus \u00een el cu toate viscerele min\u0163ii tale, cu tine tot, de fapt. Nici n-ai \u015ftiut c\u00e2nd a-nceput s\u0103 te b\u00e2ntuie munca ta, c\u00e2nd ea n-a mai fost sim\u0163it\u0103 ca un efort, ci-a devenit o pl\u0103cere ritmat\u0103.
\nApoi, fiindc\u0103 nu po\u0163i s\u0103 ie\u015fi din faza \u201enu-mi vine s\u0103 cred, nu mi se poate-nt\u00e2mpla mie\u201c, combinat\u0103 cu \u201ebine, dar eu fac mult mai mult dec\u00e2t fi\u015fa postului, adic\u0103-mi las epiderma pentru \u0103\u015ftia\u201c. \u015ei, de fric\u0103, speri. E un sport anaerob care-\u0163i poate aduce o depresie proasp\u0103t\u0103 \u015fi frumu\u015fic\u0103. La-nceput, c\u00e2nd seam\u0103n\u0103 cu reveria aduc\u0103toare de-o brum\u0103 de creativitate. Mai \u00eencolo, te-nghite \u015fi nici nu \u015ftii c\u00e2nd ajungi s\u0103 crezi c\u0103 nu e\u015fti bun de nimic, nu e\u015fti \u00een stare s\u0103-\u0163i g\u0103se\u015fti de lucru, nu po\u0163i, fir-ar!, s\u0103 ie\u015fi din situa\u0163ia asta. Nu vezi negru, vezi zid. Culoarea-i la alegere. La fel de opac\u0103.
\nCum s\u0103 ie\u015fi tu-n lume \u015fi s\u0103 spui c\u0103, de fapt, e\u015fti un \u015fomer care merge ca bou\u2019 la serviciu fiindc\u0103-i e o groaz\u0103 indicibil\u0103 s\u0103 spun\u0103 stop. O groaz\u0103 care d\u0103 cep unei angoase, da\u2019 nu recuno\u015fti nici mort. M\u0103 rog, parc\u0103 acum ai fi viu.
\nN-ar r\u00e2de lumea de tine, s\u0103 \u015ftie c\u0103 e\u015fti nepl\u0103tit de luni de zile, c\u0103 n-ai o le\u0163caie-n buzunar \u015fi-ai ajuns s\u0103 faci calcule pe care nici \u00een co\u015fmaruri n-ai crezut c\u0103 le vei face vreodat\u0103? Nu, nu spui nimic. Te temi c\u0103, dac\u0103 se afl\u0103, n-o s\u0103-\u0163i mai g\u0103se\u015fti nimic de munc\u0103. Lumea comp\u0103time\u015fte generic din v\u00e2rful buzelor, dar \u00eei respinge pe e\u015fua\u0163i. Iar tu \u015ftii, c\u00e2nd ajungi singur cu tine, c\u0103 despre asta-i vorba.
\nDa, m\u0103. E\u015fti \u015fi s\u0103rac, \u015fi prost. Ba cred c\u0103 balan\u0163a se fr\u00e2nge la a doua, c\u0103 prima se mai repar\u0103. Oricum, t\u0103t\u0103 lumea \u015ftie, c\u0103 b\u00e2rfa-i supersonic\u0103, c\u0103 e\u015fti vai de mama ta. \u015ei, sincer, prea pu\u0163inora le pas\u0103 de tine. Majoritatea te dispre\u0163uiesc pentru c\u0103 nu e\u015fti \u00een stare s\u0103-\u0163i pui bocceaua pe um\u0103r \u015fi s\u0103 ie\u015fi demn pe u\u015f\u0103. Le e sil\u0103, cum \u00ee\u0163i e \u015fi \u0163ie, pentru c\u0103 te complaci. \u015ei, da, \u00ee\u0163i scad ac\u0163iunile la bursa respectului. Da\u2019 nu al lor, al t\u0103u.
\nA\u015fa c\u0103 pune m\u00e2na pe-o coal\u0103 A4 \u015fi scrie-\u0163i lizibil demisia. Vezi s\u0103 pui temeiul legal corect, art. 55 lit. b) \u2013 cu acordul p\u0103r\u0163ilor, la data hot\u0103r\u00e2t\u0103 de acestea \u2013, din Legea nr. 53\/2003 \u2013 Codul Muncii, cu modific\u0103rile \u015fi complet\u0103rile ulterioare. Nu, nu le e\u015fti dator cu nimic. \u0162ie-\u0163i e\u015fti. Semneaz\u0103, cere num\u0103r de-nregistrare, f\u0103 o copie \u015fi pleac\u0103. Nu lua liftul, coboar\u0103 sc\u0103rile din dou\u0103-n dou\u0103 trepte. F\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 numeri.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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